First post. :).

I am someone who has had a rough time with emotions for most of my life.  Not that I have trouble feeling anything, but that I feel way too much.  When I was younger I would always cry and piss and moan about anything because everyone hurt my feelings.  As I grew up I found it refreshing to be in touch with my emotions and became very proud of what I had become.  I had become a young man who was aware of his status when it came to sexuality, and was proud of it.  Being gay, I naturally assumed that every other gay man was as emotional as I am.  Now, I am not saying that I cry at every little thing, but I do have my days where all I want to do is stay in and cry.  However, lately I have been feeling so down and out that I can't cry.  It is almost as if I will not let myself for some weird reason.  I have no idea why because I usually have water works for a good hour or so, just letting it all out.  Crying can be somewhat therapeutic in that it releases a lot of stress and pent up emotion.  Selena Gomez has really helped me with her new song "Who Says" that plays with the idea that someone thinks you are lesser than what you really are.  She alludes to the ideas that someone is insisting that you are not the best and that you cannot achieve greatness.  I love that song because it pretty much epitomizes my feelings this week.  I hate that I cannot be myself all of the time, and I hate that my parents make me feel that way.  It really sucks, but I guess that is life.  Who says I have to be someone I'm not?  Screw them man, screw everyone who says that I can't be whatever I want to be.  I am not here to please anyone but myself.

"I'm no beauty queen, I'm just beautiful me."